Present Tense

Stream of consciousness….

natureI’ve got so many things on my mind right now that I’ve felt too scattered to try and write. In fact, I’m sitting here now, just typing and hoping that something materializes that makes sense.

I’m reading 3 or 4 books at once and all seem to focus around one message, despite their divergent authors and subject matter: get in touch with you.

You, meaning the natural, authentic, ancient you. I’m kind of obsessed with a theory that the ancient peoples of the world actually knew MORE than we modern humans. They lived directly on and with the earth their entire lives. They intimately understood the natural rhythms of the seasons, the eco-system and the energy that animates us.

I feel as if we are so separate from our roots in nature, that we have lost touch with the elements of life that keep us healthy, happy and human. Most of us embrace technology as something that has greatly enhanced our lives, but the more I think about it, the less I believe it. I think we are distracted, numb and out of touch with what animates us as living, breathing organisms. The natural world is where we came from and yet we’re destroying it in the name of growth, progress, and ‘better lives’.

Yes, I’m guilty. I have all of the modern conveniences, including a giant iPhone 6 Plus, that I obsessively carry with me at all times. I have a conflicted relationship with that frickin’ phone. It contains podcasts, music, meditations and various apps that I use for fairly healthy pursuits, but it’s the email and Facebook and texting that addicts me. Every time I spend more than 20 minutes Facebooking, I hate myself. It drains me; it often depletes the spiritual work that I’ve done that day, particularly if I get sucked into some stupid self-righteous argument. And yet…I go back to it.

So, what to do? I’m seriously considering dropping the Facebook page that many of you found this blog on, but then how do I publicize Present Tense? I enjoy writing the blog, but is it time to just completely retire from public communication? Do I write because I need constant validation? Is this merely my ego striving for attention?

Last week, I went out to dinner with some girl friends and out of the blue, they all told me to never stop writing the blog; they said it gave validation to many of the feelings and struggles they were having. Then, during another discussion about my astrological chart, I was told that I was here to communicate; to talk about and share my own spiritual quest and help others along the way. Okay. Blog will continue.

So, my next phase will include a lot of rumination on how we can go backwards as humans to a time when we were in tune with our world on a much more intimate level than we are right now. Some have never lost that connection, but most of us have. The ancient people who are responsible for much of our current spiritual roots, knew much more than we give them credit for.

There is a spirit in everything and we would do well to honor them all; the trees, the rocks, the flowers, the birds, the fish, the foods we eat, etc. Many of us have pets and we have no doubt that they have spirits; we know them intimately and believe that are connected to us. Extend that connection to everything around you, including other people, no matter how hostile or annoying. Everything and everyone has a spirit and our job as residents of earth is to honor every spirit.

This may mean disconnecting and going outside more often. Touch the actual earth, rather than concrete or asphalt. Eat REAL food, that was lovingly grown. Limit the chemicals in your house and on your body. Stop believing the ‘conventional wisdom’ that is usually disseminated to control your thoughts or gain power or money for someone. Listen to your body and nurture it. Begin some sort of meditation practice. Be introspective and honest with yourself. Above all, recognize that we are all connected; everyone and everything on this planet. Even those you fear and may not understand. Don’t hate. Dig deep and begin to love more.

January 30, 2015 - Posted by | Musings | , , , , , , , , , , , ,


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  2. Love, love, LOVE this blog post Jane. It is absolutely beautiful, profound, and accurate! Thank you. 🙂

    Comment by Michelle B. | January 30, 2015 | Reply

  3. Thank you for this blog. As I lay here wasting time on Facebook and email I realize I can do something much more productive for myself. I am going to draw a salt bath now and unplug!

    Comment by Julie | January 30, 2015 | Reply

  4. Stream of consciousness is the best title for this piece. You have captured your consciousness thoughts and share them with the world. Did you stop and consider all things developed can be used for greatness or destruction, to perserve life or destroy it. Let’s take it back to when people lived off the earth, they rubbed two stick together and created fire. Most used it to heat their food or warm their huts, but the few that used it to burn down huts and burn humans like food made, everyone question the inventions. It’s how we use technology that decides whether it’s an enhancement or a disadvantage. The People write questionable blogs and post junk on facebook have people that are using those social outlets to inform, question their intentions. If your content causes other to move closer to peace, do stop continue on continuing. Drown out all the negative noise and make so positive noise of your own.

    P.S. education take more than self discovery, it take having faith in others to inform. It’s true you can’t have we with me, but you isn’t greater than us!!!!

    Comment by AmazinglyBrash | January 30, 2015 | Reply

  5. I love this Jane. Earth is the only antidote for electronic overload. Funny how that works. She treats us so much better than we do her. Please keep blogging.

    Comment by talktraffic28 | January 30, 2015 | Reply

  6. Well, I just signed up via email, so that’s how I’ll know about it if you decide to lose FB. I still like FB, but am on it less, because I too, feel a burnout about my life and a disconnect with the very people I treasure most. Enjoyed this post, thank you.

    Comment by Francesca Amari Sajtar | January 30, 2015 | Reply

  7. I’m beginning the same journey with many of the same thoughts. I have believed for a long time that it is the connections we make and have that complete us, make us feel useful and eventually bring us to the point of being productive, happy souls. My next project is a meditation room/place that anybody who needs peace (including myself) can go, dial up some music or nature sounds, light some incense, and reconnect with the world. Thank you for writing. It has been an inspiration to me and my family.

    Comment by Judy | January 30, 2015 | Reply

  8. Ditto Francesca… signed up via email too. Thank you again Jane, for sharing yourself through your musings. You speak to things a lot of us are thinking, but could not articulate nearly so well.

    Comment by Dawn Werner-Brandenburg | January 30, 2015 | Reply

  9. Jane I share many of your ideas about life and connection to self and am a major deep thought non-fiction reader. Not long ago I told myself that I was going to stop logging into Facebook because I felt “drained” as well. I realized though that it was only particular heated comments people were leaving that caused that anxiety. Checking out my newsfeed a few times a week actually serves as a little getaway where I can just relax and float though random information. It is nice to allow that little calm that comes from reading the randomness of the newsfeed. However, I did unfollow and unsubscribe to people/pages who have nothing positive to say AND I have exercised major restraint in NOT reading comments on news articles. I subscribed to lots of pages I have interest in Yoga, exercise, spirituality, health, home info, stuff like that so it pops up through my feed often. Now it’s not so bad. I also read my first fiction book in a very long time. A chose an audio book completely opposite of my usual deep non-fiction, a sci-fi comedy based on high Amazon reviews and it was fabulous and so funny. I say all this to say, Its ok to let a little technology in to allow a mental “escape” from your own thoughts, obsessions, work, whatever. Sometimes we need a break from ourselves too.

    Comment by TH | January 31, 2015 | Reply

  10. thank you Jane- I needed a reminder.

    Comment by roni atlas | January 31, 2015 | Reply

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