Present Tense

The Story of Mojo

mojoWe lost our dog Ember in May.

I wrote about her death after she was hit by a delivery truck in our driveway.

I wrote about forgiving the driver.

I wrote about how I handled her death and held her body and buried her in the center of my medicine wheel garden.

I haven’t yet written about the solo, 3600 mile, healing pilgrimage that I made to sacred places in Minnesota, South Dakota, Wyoming and Montana after her death.  But, I will.

I’m not overstating it when I say that her death and the circumstances surrounding her death were some of the most painful and transformational events of my life.  There was something mystical about it.  Here is the next chapter:

On June 1st, while I was wandering around Badlands National Park, breathing in the energy and working on clearing my heart of the oppressive grief that I felt, 5 puppies were born in Colorado.  They were Jack Russell Terriers from the same family as our dogs Chili (also a devastating loss in 2013), Junior and Ember.

My friends Darlene and Mike, sent me photos of the new puppies. They were also grieving Ember’s loss along with us.  She was ‘their dog’, too as she had come from their kennel.

I had no desire for a puppy anytime soon.  The wound was still too raw. I wanted to take plenty of time to allow the grieving process to unfold.  I knew that healing would happen with time.  We would be a one dog family for a year or so.

When these puppies reached about 6 weeks, Darlene told me that one of them, a little boy, had a heart murmur and needed to be checked out by a cardiologist.  Many times puppies will outgrow a minor heart murmur and so I wished her well and didn’t think about it again.

A week later, she had an appointment with a specialty clinic in Denver to have him checked out. Driving to the clinic, she was caught in traffic.  An accident had closed the freeway and she wasn’t able to get to the appointment.

Frantically, she called a terrier owning friend who recommended another specialty clinic north of Denver with a great cardiologist and she was able to get an appointment.

At that clinic, they were told that “Dipstick” as they’d started calling him due to his black tail, was in congestive heart failure. He had a large hole in his heart.  Surgery, costing thousands of dollars was the only thing that would save his life.  He was 9 weeks old.

They admitted that they just couldn’t swing that amount of money for the pup.  It was a horrible decision to have to make, but the cardiologist was so taken with Dipstick, she said they would do the surgery, no charge.   Out of the blue.  Just like that.  They said, “we’ll save him”.

And they did.  As soon as he was out of surgery, his BP and heart rate were normal. He was up and eating within 24 hours.  A miracle.

The docs said the hole was so big that they couldn’t fix it laparoscopically; they had to open him up and use sutures to close the hole in his heart.  The entire team was in the operating room, watching and rooting for “Dippy” as they called him.

I had no idea that all of this was happening, other than being told that he needed this surgery and that this group of wonderful angels had offered to save his life.

I was telling my husband this story and told him that once he was healed, they would place him in a good home.  He said “Did you raise your hand?”  This comment was from a man who fought me on every single puppy that I’ve brought home.  Who declared loudly after every pet loss, “NO NEW DOGS”.

I hadn’t spoken one word about a new puppy after we lost Ember.  It was still too painful for me and I knew what his reaction would be.

So, the next morning, I meditated on this.  I had decided that we should wait on another puppy. I was hoping for another girl dog.  I didn’t think we had taken enough time to grieve and adapt to our new normal.

But, as I sat in meditation, I heard this: “You all have a hole in your heart and so does he.  You can heal your hearts together”.  Truly.  That is exactly what came to me.

This little dog was full of magic.  He had such a strong spirit to survive for so long with a hole in his heart.  His spirit reached out and grabbed a group of veterinarians when they saw him and propelled them to do a wondrous and compassionate and extraordinarily generous thing.  That is some very good mojo.

I have no doubt that part of that strength and part of that charm came from Ember’s spirit visiting him.  I see Chili’s sweet, wise soul in his eyes.

Mojo saw his docs last Thursday and they declared him cured.  Fixed.  Ready for a long and vivacious terrier life. I’m told some of them had tears in their eyes when they saw how lively and happy he is with his strong, healthy heart.

There is something mystical about this story.  When I weave it all together and see the unseen forces working to bring this pup to us, I’m in awe.

Had he not been sick. Had Darlene not missed the first appointment.  Had I not sat in meditation.  And yes, had we not lost Ember.  Life is so uncontrollable and mixed up and perfect.

He will come to live with us very soon.  He has to.  Spirit wouldn’t have it any other way.

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  1. Your story brought tears to my eyes. There is no denying Spirit, when Spirit speaks. I lost my 15 and a half year old dog in March. I was like you. There was no getting another dog for months, maybe a year. But circumstances arranged themselves in such a way that I had another new dog shortly after. I wasn’t looking for him. He fell into my lap. he has shanties stubborn spirit and her kind eyes. And he has helped me heal. I wish you so much joy in your journey with Mojo.

    Comment by Sher | August 28, 2016 | Reply

  2. Beautiful story, I thank you for sharing.

    Comment by Elizabeth Couture | August 28, 2016 | Reply

  3. I miss your posts Jane, keep them coming.
    Look forward to seeing the new pup.

    Comment by Lori | August 28, 2016 | Reply

  4. Beautiful Jane – thanks. We are happy our son decided we needed a puppy after Roscoe’s passing. Mongo loves some of toys that Roscoe loved so much…that by itself gives me some peace. Enjoy your Mojo!

    Comment by Carolyn Stillman | August 28, 2016 | Reply

  5. Ahh so beautiful and touching. You are such an amazing soul, I am so happy for you and little Mojo. Can’t wait for the pictures and the videos. Love you friend..

    Comment by Meghan | August 28, 2016 | Reply

  6. Just like you and the others, I had vowed to wait to get another cat after my cat, Dusty, that I had for 21 years, died in July of 2000. My kids thought otherwise. I received a new litterbox and supplies that Christmas with the wish of “please find a new cat to love.” I did and Cassie entered my life for 9 years before she also had to leave. There is so much joy in each fur kid, but there is the sadness that comes when they have to leave us, too. Wishing you the best, Jane, as you take Mojo into your home and your heart! You are a blessing to him and he will be to you, also!

    Comment by Kathy Graybill | August 28, 2016 | Reply

  7. I know it’s cliche, but everything does happen for a reason. Mojo is meant to be with you and PC and you are meant to be with him. Healing starts in the heart. Healing Mojo’s heart first, then yours and PC’s. What an inspiring story. There is something spiritual about all of this, and even if you didn’t think you were ready yet, the universe thinks you are ready. Bless little Mojo and bless you too! Can’t wait to hear all about his antics as well as all of your other fur babies. Thank you for sharing!!

    Comment by Jane Johnson | August 28, 2016 | Reply

  8. Great story of your journey to aguiring you new addition to your family and PC’s willingness to know that this story will have a happier ending. I am so happy for you! This little Mojo will be so loved by your family . Thanks for sharing. I love the way you write and put everything in perspective.

    Comment by Karen Binns | August 28, 2016 | Reply

  9. I just KNEW how it was going to end. The Universe. She turns cogs in our lives, most of the time we are unaware. But with open minds and hearts, She continually influences our lives. So happy for you! Personally I believe the best cure for grief losing a pet is to welcome another pet. To know you will give another dog soul a great life. Ember is wagging her tail happily ~ she knows happiness is coming back to you. Healing. 🙂

    Comment by Jodi Gerber | August 28, 2016 | Reply

    • Jodi:
      while I do agree that it’s often a great thing to get another pet after a loss, I also believe that we need time to grieve our losses. I think that I got Ember much too soon after losing Chili and maybe that was not a good idea. After Ember died, I found myself processing BOTH of their deaths because I had not taken the time to grieve Chili completely. A new pet can make us feel better, but we have to process our feelings fully.
      Thanks for the note. Mojo will be loved:)

      Comment by janelondon | August 28, 2016 | Reply

  10. Reading this I actually got a little verklempt … lovely!

    Comment by Big Mike | August 28, 2016 | Reply

  11. I think once my daughter takes her two pups to Alaska and we are sans canines, we will get another dog. Or two. You had me at heart murmur. Great piece Jane.

    Comment by Tim Lankerd | August 28, 2016 | Reply

  12. Love, Love, Love this story!!

    Comment by mary mcneely | August 28, 2016 | Reply

  13. I love this story, this is really listening to your soul. This is a gift for you from spirit

    Comment by Edith Clark | August 28, 2016 | Reply

  14. Someone once told me “there are no coincidences.” At such a young age, Mojo already has a great story. Thank you for sharing it. There is no doubt he will bring you many years of love, peace, and joy.

    Comment by Kaci | August 28, 2016 | Reply

  15. I too am teary eyed, the circle of life, your family will be complete again, hugs to you, smooches for the ‘kids’

    Comment by Susan | August 28, 2016 | Reply

  16. Wow Jane go for it ! This brought me to tears , I’am kinda like Dom only house in Lakewood with out a dog lol my husband works for FedEx and when I shared this story with him he to got teared eyed made him sick for both parties. We talk of you often when I share your stories with him. We are happy for you PC and Junior ! Good luck xo

    Comment by Cheryl | August 28, 2016 | Reply

  17. this is wonderful jane…the universe does indeed work in wonderous ways sometimes…welcome to little mojo and may he add joy and wonder and love to your family

    Comment by lin | August 28, 2016 | Reply

  18. Oh, Jane. My heart is full of joy for you and your family. You found your Mojo. I keep learning so much from you on the value of opening my heart to possibilities. I’m still very much a toddler on this journey, but your posts and your spirit help me every day. Can’t wait to hear how Junior and Mojo tear it up around Camp Jane and PC!

    Comment by Jennifer | August 28, 2016 | Reply

  19. Jane, I read your story and got all choked up. I didn’t even put two and two together about you all having a hole in your heart until you pointed it out. Mojo just had to have been sent to you by Ember and Chili. Enjoy your new fur baby! ❤️

    Comment by Karen Ostrowski | August 28, 2016 | Reply

  20. Coinsidence, I think not.

    Comment by Patricia | August 29, 2016 | Reply

  21. Amazing story! I am a firm believer everything happens for a reason, and that my loving God is orchestrating it all! Happy for you and the puppy! 💕

    Comment by Vicki | August 29, 2016 | Reply

  22. This is such an amazing story. I hope all your hearts are filled with joy and peace and lots and lots of love!

    Comment by Francesca Amari | August 29, 2016 | Reply

  23. Jane – Every time we hear you on Mix 100 commercials, my 11 year old son says how much he misses listening to you and your family friendly topics and his Dad and I always agree we miss you a ton! (and Marge is our hairstylist so we are super cool…LOL) We love you and your family. You will have a wonderful with Mojo and thank you for you wonderful words on all topics. You are a great writer

    Comment by Cindy Colip | August 29, 2016 | Reply

    • edit…you will have a wonderful “Life” with Mojo….
      (I am an enginerd, not a grammarist…)

      Comment by Cindy Colip | August 29, 2016 | Reply

  24. Jane- I am a Denver native and listened to you for years. My husband is from MI and we lived there for 1 year but my husband knew my heart was in CO and agreed we should move back. I love reading your blog and how openly you share everything. I became a yoga instructor a couple years ago, I never thought I would teach but I knew I wanted to dive deaper into the magic of my practice. I’m a mom, wife, sister, daughter etc and I work a full the job in addition to teaching yoga. My meditation practice has been something that I know I need more of, and it’s always the excuse that there is not enough time. Thank you for reminding me to make the time!

    Comment by Karra | August 31, 2016 | Reply

    • Karra
      It’s interesting that you wrote to me today, as I JUST re-started my yoga practice this morning:) During a reiki session yesterday I got a VERY clear message that I needed to come back into my body. That I had neglected my physical wellness and had spent too much time in my head and intellect:) When I was working from home doing the radio show, I used to do 20 minutes of yoga, followed by 20 minutes of meditation every morning before doing the show. Over the past couple of years, I’ve let that slide and I was reminded that I NEED that physical practice, along with the rest of my spiritual practice. The yoga clears space in my brain for more clarity.
      So, there you go! We’re all finding our footing.
      Thanks for the kind word.
      All the best,

      Comment by janelondon | August 31, 2016 | Reply

  25. I write this note with tears in my eyes but a smile beaming on my face. We do not know one another but I feel I know you via the radio + these posts. I cried my eyes out over the loss of Ember. Now my heart is filled with joy as you open a new chapter in your life … I think it’s simply wonderful that Mojo will have you + you will have Mojo. May blessings abound!

    Comment by Jeri | September 1, 2016 | Reply

  26. […] Falling in love with Mojo has made us realize we miss that “spark” – thus the dog show, the pictures, the terriers, the obsession has begun.  I hope you enjoy Mojo’s story and to see him in action, find Jane London on Facebook. […]

    Pingback by Mojo | October 23, 2016 | Reply

  27. What a fantastic story! As we look back and see God’s hand at work, it is a humbling event. Many years of joy and love to you and Mojo!

    Comment by darlynn | October 23, 2016 | Reply

  28. Jane – where have you been? I miss your posts. Could really use some words of comfort on this election night!

    Comment by lisa | November 9, 2016 | Reply

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